Friday, July 21, 2017

Booktube-a-thon TBR

Hello Everyone! 

Today's post is going to be the list of books I plan on reading for the Booktube-a-thon that takes place
this week. It is hosted by BookTuber Ariel Bisette and even though I am not taking part in the vlog/blog portion of this read-a-thon, the reading challenges sounded really interesting so I decided that I would like to take part in it. 

Originally I was going to list the challenges and name the book that I was going to read for that challenge, however since several of these books could potentially help complete several of these challenges I am just going to list the challenges and then list the books that I hope to read next week. 

The Reading Challenges: 

1. Read a book with a person on the cover.
2. Read a hyped book.
3. Finish a book in one day.
4. Read about a character that is very different from you.
5.Finish a book completely outdoors.
6. Read a book you bought because of the cover.
7.Read seven books.

My TBR: 
1. Wanderlost by Jen Malone 
Completes challenge number 1.

2. Flame in the Mist by Renee Ahdieh 
Completes challenge number 2.

3. James and the Giant Peach by Roald Dahl 
Completes challenges 3 and 4.

4. The Vicar of Nibbleswicke by Roald Dahl
Completes challenge number 5.

5. Because You Love to Hate Me edited by Ameriie
Completes challenge number 6.

6. The Giraffe and the Pelly and Me by Roald Dahl 

7. Once and For All by Sarah Dessen

8. Words in Deep Blue by Cath Crowley 

9. The Secret Diary of Lizzie Bennett by Bernie Su 

10. Lost at Sea by Bryan Lee O'Malley 

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C.

Thursday, July 20, 2017

24Hourathon TBR

Hello Everyone!

So I know I did my own read-a-thon yesterday, but I heard that Kelly from the Youtube channel KellysBookSpill is hosting the 24-Hour-a-thon that is taking place tomorrow. I decided it would be fun to try and participate in another read-a-thon. Here are the books I plan on reading tomorrow (Note: two of these are repeats from my last read-a-thon TBR since I didn't get a chance to get to them.)

1. With You Always by Jody Hedlund

2. Wanderlost by Jen Malone

3. Confessions of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella

4. When Dimple Met Rishi by Sandhya Menon

5. One Piece Vol. 7 by Eiichiro Oda

6. One Piece Vol. 8 by Eiichiro Oda 

7. You Are Here by Jennifer E. Smith (If I haven't already finished it!)

And those are the books I am planning to get to during the 24-hour-a-thon...I won't be able to get to all of them, but two of them I am almost finished with so those will be the ones I read first, then I will read a volume of One Piece and then pick one of the other novels on my list.

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C. 

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Top 5 Wednesday: Children's Books

Hello everyone!

Welcome to another edition of Top 5 Wednesday. Today's topic is favorite children's books. This was hard narrow down because I have so many favorites and I am thinking about doing a post in the future with a more extensive list of my favorites. But without further ado, here are my favorite Children's books

1. Matilda by Roald Dahl
Ever since I read this in first or second grade this has been my favorite book especially since I felt like I could identify with Matilda in that I loved reading and I also felt like the odd one out at school. I am also planning on rereading it this month.

2. Sleepovers by Jacqueline Wilson
I remember this was the first Jacqueline Wilson book I ever read and I remember my parents had given me this book when I was about 8 when we were getting ready to go on a trip and they wanted me to have something to read on the plane ride. I remember loving this book and I reread it several times and I have no idea what I did with it, but I do want to reread it sometime just for the nostalgia.

3. Anything by Enid Blyton
I read a lot of books by Enid Blyton, probably one of my favorites is The Faraway Tree series. She has a huge collection of novels, some of them are set in boarding school and some of them are fantastical and just really good! Now that I am thinking about it, I really want to pick up one of her books and reread it to see what I think of her writing as an adult.

4. Anything by Dr. Seuss
This list would not be complete without mentioning Dr. Seuss, my parents used to read these books to my brother and I and I loved all of them. I don't know if I could pick just one book that is my favorite because they are all great!

5. Tales of Fourth Grade Nothing by Judy Blume
I remember listening to the audio book several times on road trips when I was 8. I loved this book and all the Fudge books by Judy Blume. And, I know I've said this for almost every book on this list, but I want to reread this sometime just to revisit my childhood.

And those are my Top 5 Children's books, but I know there are a lot more, so there will be a longer list soon!

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C.

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Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Personal 24 Hour Read-a-thon TBR

Hello everyone!

I know I already posted today, but after watching several Booktube videos from people that participated in a 24 hour read-a-thon hosted by ReadbyZoe and really wanted to do my own read-a-thon. Lately I have been in a mini reading slump and I thought that it would be a great idea to try my own read-a-thon to see if that brings me out of my slump. So I have decided that starting at midnight tonight and going through until midnight tomorrow night I will have my own read-a-thon and see how much I can read in 24 hours. Here are the books I plan on picking up tomorrow:

1. Matilda by Roald Dahl 

2. You Are Here by Jennifer E. Smith

3. Wanderlost by Jen Malone 

4. Skip Beat Vol. 5 by Yoshiki Nakamura

6. One Piece Vol. 7 by Eiichiro Oda

7. Confessions of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella 

I don't know which book I am going to start first, but I am going to probably save Confessions of a Shopaholic for last because I have already started it and I don't know if I will be able to finish it.

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C.

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Hello Everyone!

Today I thought I would share with you something that I started over a month ago to keep my TBR lists interesting. I've seen a few people do this so I thought it would be cool to try it, it is a TBR jar.

There are different ways to do this, but I decided to put all the books that I own (physical books, with a few ebooks) on to slips of paper and put it in a mason jar. Each month when I make my TBR list I will draw about 5 or 6 slips from the jar. The ones that I don't finish will placed back in the TBR jar after the drawing for the next month.

Here are the list of books that are in my TBR jar:
  • Dorothy Must Die by Danielle Paige 
  • Gathering Darkness by Morgan Rhodes 
  • Heir of Fire by Sarah J. Maas 
  • Lost in a Book by Jennifer Donnelly 
  • The Praying Life by Paul E. Miller
  • You Are Here by Jennifer E. Smith 
  • Matilda by Roald Dahl 
  • The Waking Land by Callie Bates 
  • Lucky in Love by Kasie West 
  • Ever the Brave by Erin Summerill 
  • Second Chance Summer by Morgan Matson
  • The Elephant Keeper by Christopher Nicholson
  • Paige Rewritten by Erin Mangum
  • She Myself and I by Emma Young
  • Forest of a Thousand Lanterns by Julie C. Dao
  • The Crimson Cord by Jill Eileen Smith 
  • A Book of Spirits and Thieves by Morgan Rhodes 
  • The Prophetess by Jill Eileen Smith 
  • Hidden Figures by Margot Lee Shetterley
  • Delirium by Lauren Oliver
  • Nyxia by Scott Reintgen
  • Daughter of Smoke and Bone by Laini Taylor 
  • Appointment with Death by Agatha Christie
  • Frozen Tide by Morgan Rhodes 
  • Queen of the Tearling by Erika Johansen
  • Heidi by Johanna Spyri
  • More of Me by Kathryn Evans 
  • Queen of Hearts by Colleen Oakes 
  • Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare 
  • Ready Player One by Ernest Cline 
  • Curio by Evangeline Denmark 
  • Shopaholic Takes Manhattan by Sophie Kinsella
  • Shatter Me by Tahera Mafi 
  • Shadow of the Almighty by Elisabeth Elliot
  • 204 Rosewood Lane by Debbie Macomber 
  • Wendy Darling: Volume 1: Stars by Colleen Oakes 
  • Daughter of the Pirate King by Tricia Levenseller 
  • Snow Like Ashes by Sarah Raasch
  • The Mirror Crack'd by Agatha Christie 
  • These Broken Stars by Amie Kaufman and Megan Spooner 
  • Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon
  • A Short History of the Girl Next Door by Jared Reck 
  • Truthwitch by Susan Dennard 
  • Cranford by Elizabeth Gaskell 
  • The Painter's Daughter by Julie Klassen 
  • A Study in Charlotte by Brittany Cavallaro
  • Hard Times by Charles Dickens 
  • Confessions of a Shopaholic by Sophie Kinsella 
  • Invasion of the Tearling by Erika Johansen 
  • Nevermoor by Jessica Townsend 
  • The Epic Crush of Genie Lo by F.C. Yee
  • The Beautiful Lost by Luanne Rice 
  • Magonia by Maria Dahvana Headley
  • Maybe Someday by Colleen Hoover 
  • The Silent Governess by Julie Klassen 
  • The Two Towers by J. R. R. Tolkien 
  • The Return of the King by J. R. R. Tolkien 
  • A Face Like Glass by Frances Hardinge
  • Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen 
  • Landline by Rainbow Rowell 
  • To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
  • Amid Stars and Darkness by Chani Lynn Feener 
  • Off the Page by Jodi Picoult and Samantha Van Leer 
  • Happy Again by Jennifer E. Smith 
  • Ante Up! by Chautona Havig 
  • Since You've Been Gone by Morgan Matson
  • The Beaches and Brides Collection by Various Authors 
  • Here Lies Daniel Tate by Cristin Terrill
  • Outlander by Diana Gabaldon
  • Between the Lines by Jodi Picoult and Samantha Van Leer 
  • The Fairest Beauty by Melanie Dickerson
  • Paige Torn by Erin Mangum 
  • Anne of Windy Poplars by L. M. Montgomery 
  • An Awakened Heart by Jody Hedlund 
  • Stuck in the Moment by Tracie Puckett
  • The Wrath and the Dawn by Renee Ahdieh 
  • Zero Repeat Forever by Gabrielle Prendergasst
  • The Lover Letters of Abelard and Lilly 
  • Roseblood by A. G. Howard 
  • Wanderlost by Jen Malone 
  • Queen of Shadows by Sarah J. Maas 
  • Dear Reader by Mary O'Connell 
  • Twenty Boy Summer by Sarah Ockler 
  • The Body in the Library by Agatha Christie 
  • A Portrait of Emily Price by Katherine Reay 
  • The Bronte Plot by Katherine Reay 
  • Shopping for Time by Carolyn Mahaney 
  • Walking on Sea Glass by Julie Carobini
  • Nemesis by Brendan Reichs 
  • The Summer I Turned Pretty by Jenny Han
  • Haunting the Deep by Adriana Mather
  • A Note Yet Unsung by Tamera Alexader 
  • The Breathless by Tara Goedhen
  • The Beautiful Pretender by Melanie Dickerson 
  • Carve the Mark by Veronica Roth 
  • Odd and True by Cat Winters 
  • The Healer's Apprentice by Melanie Dickerson 
  • Of Poseidon by Anna Banks 
  • Your One and Only by Adrianne Finlay 
  • The Innkeeper of Ivy Hill by Julie Klasssen 
  • The Last Magician by Lisa Maxwell
  • The Hunchback of Notre Dame by Victor Hugo 
  • The Silent Songbird by Melanie Dickerson 
  • The Gospel According to Jesus by John MacArthur 
  • Things I Should Have Known by Claire LaZebnik 
  • The Huntress of Thornbeck Forest by Melanie Dickerson 
  • The Belles by Dhonielle Clayton 
  • Timeless by Armand Baltazar 
  • Satellite by Nick Lake 
  • The Mysterious World of Agatha Christie by Jeffrey Feinman
  • The Old Curiosity by Charles Dickens 
  • The No.1 Ladies Detective Agency by Alexander McCall-Smith
  • David Copperfield by Charles Dickens 
  • Paradise Lost by John Milton 
  • The Winner's Curse by Marie Rutkoski
  • The Vintage Wren Week 1 by Chautona Havig 
  • Earth Before Us by Abby Howard 
  • Eliza and Her Monsters by Francesca Zappia 
  • Meaning at the Movies by Grant Horner 
  • Hunted by Megan Spooner 
  • Don't Waste Your Life by John Piper
If you would like to see my progress with reading books from the TBR jar, I will have a separate page on the blog where I will cross off each title that I end up reading. 

Happy Reading, 
Janelle L. C. 

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Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Book Review: Road to Paradise

Hello Everyone! 

Today's review is on The Road to Paradise by Karen Barnett.

An ideal sanctuary and a dream come true–that’s what Margaret Lane feels as she takes in God’s gorgeous handiwork in Mount Rainer National Park. It’s 1927 and the National Park Service is in its youth when Margie, an avid naturalist, lands a coveted position alongside the park rangers living and working in the unrivaled splendor of Mount Rainier’s long shadow. 
But Chief Ranger Ford Brayden is still haunted by his father’s death on the mountain, and the ranger takes his work managing the park and its crowd of visitors seriously. The job of watching over an idealistic senator’s daughter with few practical survival skills seems a waste of resources.
When Margie’s former fiancé sets his mind on developing the Paradise Inn and its surroundings into a tourist playground, the plans might put more than the park’s pristine beauty in danger. What will Margie and Ford sacrifice to preserve the splendor and simplicity of the wilderness they both love? 
Karen Barnett’s vintage national parks novels bring to vivid life President Theodore Roosevelt’s vision for protected lands, when he wrote in Outdoor Pastimes of an American Hunter: "There can be nothing in the world more beautiful than the Yosemite, the groves of the giant sequoias and redwoods, the Canyon of the Colorado, the Canyon of the Yellowstone, the Three Tetons; and our people should see to it that they are preserved for their children and their children's children forever, with their majestic beauty all unmarred."

My Thoughts: 
I enjoyed this book, it had a sweet romance and I liked how Margie had to fight against her ex-fiance. I liked learning more about the early days of the national parks system and how they struggled with finances and getting support from people in order to keep them running. There were also moments throughout this novel that took me by surprise even though some of it was predictable. 

I loved the character of Margie and even though she had a privileged upbringing she was willing to get her hands dirty in order to enjoy working in God's creation and sharing that beauty with others. However, I found Ford to be kind of annoying and off-putting because he is so focused on the events that happened several years before the novel took place. But I also liked how his realistic view on life and the park balanced out Margie's idealistic views and I do like how their relationship starts to blossom. I liked the antagonist of the story because he was realistic and that there are people like him in the world today. I loved the side characters in this novel and their interactions with the main characters. 

Overall, I enjoyed this book even though some of it was predictable. I loved the backdrop and the characters and I am looking forward to reading the next book in this series. 4/5 Stars. 

I would like to thank the author and the publisher, Waterbrook Press, for sending me a complimentary copy of this book in exchange for my honest review! 

Happy Reading, 
Janelle L. C. 

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Monday, July 3, 2017

July TBR

Hello Everyone!

Last month was a pretty good reading month and I am hoping that this month will also be a good one. Here are the books I am planning on reading this July:

1. Lucky in Love by Kasie West

2. With You Always by Jody Hedlund

3. Matilda by Roald Dahl

4. When Dimple Met Rishi by Sandyha Menon

5. Wanderlost by Jen Malone

There are other books that I am planning on reading this month, but these are the ones that I know for sure I want to read. I am also going to take place in the Booktube-a-thon later this month, so I will be posting another TBR for that closer to the time of the read-a-thon.

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C.

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Friday, June 23, 2017

Book Review: Flawed

Today's review is on Flawed by Cecelia Ahern
I have been a fan of Cecelia Ahern's books since I was about 14 when I came across a copy of Thanks For The Memories at my high school library. I have read almost all of her books and when I heard she was releasing her YA debut I knew I had to get it!

Flawed is set in a future society which is kind of dystopian, although not really. Celestine is the model citizen, she is a great student and a dutiful daughter. However, one day Celestine makes an instinctive decision in which she is arrested and could possibly be branded Flawed. To receive the brand makes one a social outcast and there are different rules that the Flawed are forced to live by. She ultimately does end up branded (this is not a spoiler) and has to learn to live a life that is very different from the one she used to live, as well as discover that everything is not as perfect as it seems.

First off, I really enjoyed this book! I know it probably has common tropes found YA and dystopian novels, but I haven't read a whole lot of dystopian books and Flawed was great! I loved the world and I loved that even though not a lot happens in the book there are several twists that surprised me, for example the villain ends up being more villainous than when he/she first appears (if that makes sense at all). It also dealt with corruption and how sometimes when something seems so perfect it can actually be a cover-up for something sinister.

I loved Celestine, I enjoyed seeing her develop as a character throughout the book and how she has to adjust to living the life of a Flawed person. I also enjoyed watching her discover that her world wasn't as black and white, or perfect as it seemed before the whole ordeal started. I also liked getting to know the side characters in this book.

Cecelia Ahern definitely proved that she is a dynamic writer in that she can almost write in any genre she wants to because she is both a great contemporary author, and Flawed definitely shows that she is a good YA author. I really enjoyed seeing the small allusions to The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne throughout the book and how she used the concept of being branded with an "F" for Flawed.

I can't wait for Perfect to come out early next year because I am excited to see what happens next, although it will be the conclusion because I believe it is only a duology.

I gave this book 4.5/5 Stars because I loved it and I enjoyed the world-building even though it did contain some common tropes throughout the story.

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C.

P.S. If you have any book recommendations let me know and I will check them out! :) 

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Library Haul #12

Hello everyone! 

And welcome to the latest edition of my library hauls. Here are the books that I picked up recently at work:

Adulting: How to Become a Grownup in 468 Easy(ish) steps by Kelly Williams Brown

Love Story by Karen Kingsbury

Royce Rolls by Margaret Stohl

When Dimple Met Rishi by Sandhya Menon

Once and For All by Sarah Dessen

Windfall by Jennifer E. Smith

King's Cage by Victoria Aveyard

The Unofficial Harry Potter Cookbook by Dinah Bucholz

Roald Dahl's Even More Revolting Recipes

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C. 

Monday, June 19, 2017

Book Review: 16 Lighthouse Road

Today's review is on 16 Lighthouse Road by Debbie Macomber
I have been a fan of Debbie Macomber's books for little over a year, and even though they're not extremely well written, I love them. They are my guilty pleasures, I can get through one of her books in a day. This is the first book in her Cedar Cove series and I was excited to finally start this series.

Cedar Cove is a small seaside town on the Washington coast. In this town there are many interesting people to meet. In this first installment  readers are introduced to Cecilia and Ian Randal, a young couple who after knowing each other for a year want to get a divorce. However, the judge, Olivia Lockhart refuses to grant them a petition for divorce because she wants them to at least try and salvage their marriage if they can. During this time, Olivia might have met someone who has shown interest in her. However, her daughter Justine is stuck in a loveless relationship that her mother doesn't approve of at all. At the same time, Olivia's best friend Grace suspects that the reason her husband is acting so distant is that he is cheating on her.

I loved how the novel focused on several different characters and relationships in this town, rather than just the main couple, it really made me feel like I was getting to know more about life in Cedar Cove. It also wasn't just one age group' perspective, it was multi-generational, from Olivia's mother who is 75 to Cecilia Randal, who is only 22, it definitely added to the small-town atmosphere of the novel.

I also enjoyed the various issues that are presented in the novel and how the characters have to try and cope with them. It was interesting to see Ian and Cecilia's relationship grow over the course of the novel. I was sad for Grace because she has to deal with the aftermath of what Dan ends up doing in the middle of the novel.

I loved the characters in this novel, especially Olivia Lockhart, she is just awesome. I enjoyed seeing her reason through the petition for divorce and why she chose to deny it, she made it because she had some experience of what the young couple was going through. I also enjoyed seeing her getting to meet someone and start dating because she definitely deserves to be happy.

Even though I liked this book, there was one pretty steamy scene that I was not expecting at all because Debbie Macomber's books are relatively clean, so I didn't really appreciate that. But other than that it was a good book and I can't wait to read the other books in this series and get to know the people of Cedar Cove even more.

I am giving this book 3.5/5 Stars because even though I enjoyed it, it was mainly because it is nice Chick Lit book that is a fluffy read and I also did not like the aforementioned steamy scene.

Happy Reading,
Janelle L. C.

P.S. If you have any book recommendations let me know and I will check them out! :)

Friday, June 16, 2017

Blog Tour and Giveaway: None So Blind

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About the Book

Book title: None So Blind  
Author: Chautona Havig  
Release date: September 29, 2013  
Genre: Contemporary  
 Dani and Ella Weeks–two women who share one thing in common. The same life, the same family, and the same body. When Dani wakes with no knowledge of who or where she is–no memories of her life at all–David and Dani Weeks discover that “til death do us part” takes on an entirely unexpected meaning. Practically speaking, Dani died. But she didn’t. What’s a gal to do? In a desperate attempt to separate the old life from the new, Dani insists on a new name, a twist of her old one–Ella. Ella’s doctors can’t explain what happened. Her children can’t understand why she doesn’t know them. David, her husband, finds himself torn between admiration for the “new” version of his wife and missing the woman he’s known for over fifteen years. Will Ella ever regain her memory? Why does their pastor suspect it’s one great hoax?

My Thoughts

I liked this book! It was interesting concept and it ended up being different from what I was expecting it to be. I loved the whole concept of waking up with all your memories and personality erased and how in a way it allowed you to live your life differently from what it was before. It also made me appreciate my memories and that they are often something that I take for granted. 

I loved watching Ella develop as a character especially since she started out as a "blank slate" at the beginning of the novel. I felt like her reactions were realistic and it was interesting to see how she became a totally different person from who she used to be, and a lot of the changes are for the better. I also loved David, I think he was a great character especially in the love he shows towards Ella who is very different from the woman that married and how he takes the time to get to know. I also liked how he didn't just try to figure things out on his own - he also sought counsel from his pastor and put it into action. 

I loved the three children, even though they were more side characters I liked how we got their perspective several times throughout the novel and saw how they had to deal with a "different" mother. I also liked the other interactions that Ella had with other people as she tries to navigate through life. 

As I mentioned before this was an interesting novel and it dealt with an interesting concept in regards to memory loss, personality change and getting a second chance to live a different life. I am looking forward to reading the next book, Will Not See, soon. I am giving it 4/5 Stars. 

About the Author

Chautona Havig lives and writes in California’s Mojave Desert with her husbnd and five of her nine children. Through her novels, she hopes to encourage Christians in their walk with Jesus.

Guest post from Chautona Havig

“Who are you, again?”

“I’m Joe’s, daughter. Vyonie.” My sister pointed to me. “This is Chautona.”

For some odd reason, the niece she spent the least amount of time with, Aunt Doris remembered—somewhat. But she didn’t remember Vyonie from what I could tell. She smiled at me, that amazing, sweet smile I’d never forget. She asked how I was. I always thought that Mrs. Sanderson—mother of John, Alicia, and Carl on the TV show, Little House on the Prairie—looked and sounded like Aunt Doris. Of course, that memory of me didn’t last. A minute or two later, she gave me a big smile and asked if she knew me.

It gave me a picture of what it must have been like for my character, Ella Weeks—to wake up every day with these children there—children who knew her, but she didn’t remember. The hurt she caused every time she had to struggle to admit she didn’t know something she probably should—again. So, I thought I’d ask her to tell us about it.

Ella: People often assume that the worst part of losing my memory are the memories that disappeared, too. But it’s not. A much as I’d love to remember my wedding day, my daughter’s first steps, my son’s first words, or that moment I realized I was pregnant with my third, those are blessings that I don’t think about often. No, what hurts most is seeing the pain in my children’s eyes when they need me to remember something and I can’t. For me, not remembering their first day of kindergarten is an inconvenience. For them, it’s a further reminder that if they didn’t tell me, I wouldn’t know them. That without them pushing themselves into my life, I wouldn’t care about them any more than any other human in my path. I do now, of course, but not at first. I hate that they heard David say once, “…she doesn’t know me. She doesn’t trust me. She doesn’t know our children. She tries, but she could walk out of our lives tomorrow and never miss us.”

Living so close to it every day, I missed those little bits of pain that I inflicted without meaning to, but when I went with our Bible study to a nursing home and visited with the residents, then I saw it. Women with tears running down their cheeks as loved ones patted their hands and tried to comfort. I heard one man offer to find a woman’s father. She squeezed him close and whispered, “It’s okay, Daddy. I love you. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

The man promised to try to find her father in the meantime.

Those people there—most of them didn’t realize they didn’t remember someone important. They didn’t struggle to remember this or that. Their dementia had gotten bad enough that their lives had gone from constant frustration to, by comparison, blissful oblivion.

And their families withered with each forgotten face, name, moment.

That’s what my “episode” did for my family. It caused them pain that just resurfaced every time something new happened. Pain that I didn’t know I inflicted. And since that visit, I have a greater compassion and awareness of just how amazing and powerful memories are.

I also have a greater appreciation for those beautiful words in Isaiah when the Lord promised… “I, even I, am the one who wipes out your transgressions for My own sake, And I will not remember your sins.”

You see, there’s a lifetime of the sins that Jesus died for buried somewhere in my brain—or, at least at one time there was. I know that those sins were in there, because the ones I committed yesterday are there today. The ones I’ve already confessed and been forgiven for—I beat myself up for the next morning. A week later. A month. But the Lord has wiped them clean. I just keep smearing them back out there again as if to say, “But You don’t get how BAD I was.” Yeah. The arrogance, right? Because an almighty, holy God can’t possibly understand how sinful a sinner that He had to DIE to save from those sins… is. The arrogance? That’s an understatement.

But all those years before that horrible morning… gone. Maybe I stole something. I don’t know. It was forgiven, wiped clean, and then wiped from my memory. I can’t rehash it with the Lord over and over. I can’t drag it back up like a wife who won’t let her husband forget the one time he forgot her birthday. I can’t use it as a whip to beat myself up with. And I think there’s something beautiful in that.

Do I wish I could stop hurting my family with my blank past? Of course. But am I also grateful for a living picture of the fresh start the Lord gives His people at salvation? Definitely. I hope I never take it for granted again.

Blog Stops

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June 17Back Porch Reads
June 18Carpe Diem
June 19Quiet Quilter
June 20Mommynificent
June 22Pursuing Stacie
June 22Remembrancy
June 23Pause for Tales
June 24Bigreadersite
June 25Lots of Helpers
June 27God1meover
June 28Just Jo’Anne
June 28Henry Happens


To celebrate her tour, Chautona is giving away a grand prize that includes:

1 $25 Amazon Gift Card
1 Paperback Copy of None So Blind 
1 Paperback Copy of Will Not See 
1 Lampwork Necklace
1 Cool denim mini-backpack (to hold your stuff!) 
1 Custom Travel Mug (with quote from book) 
1 FREE eBook code to share with a friend!

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